Me: Hey fear. I wanna talk. I woke up this morning with you were harassing me about money & frankly I'm tired of it. I mean, I'm on my honeymoon & all you can talk about is why I shouldn't be. What's up with that?
Fear: Well. You SHOULDN'T BE! Think about all those bills at home waiting to be paid. With all the money you are spending and had to BORROW to be on this trip - you could of had most of them paid off. WTF?!
Me: I hear you & it would feel pretty great to have some of those bills paid and put away. But if I never went on vacation because I had a bill due - I would never get to go anywhere. I think life is about the experiences you have. And I'd much rather have memories of vacations than memories of only ever paying bills. The problem is, I'm ruining my vacation by paying attention to YOU.
Fear: What do you expect me to do? Walk away? Leave you here with your fun, friends & gratitude - why on Earth would I do that when I am the only one thinking responsibly about YOUR bills. You need me here to keep you in line & remind you of what's important.
Me: To remind me of what's important? Okay. Let me think back to the other 3 specifice times I can remember you talking smack in similar situations: Port Aransas 2008, Turner Falls 2009, Port Aransas 2009, Arizona 2010, Seattle 2010 - and yet, here we are once more. You saying the same blah, blah thing & me feeding into it.
Fear: Think about all the horrible things that could happen to you if forget about your bills!
Me: The worst possible thing that could happen to me, would be that 1) money would stop coming to me and The Mister. 2) we would have our electricity & phones turned off and 3) the creditors start calling for my car payment. What would I do if any of these things happened? 1.) Find a job to create some income until we get back on our feet & I can keep doing Soul Sessions and eCourses. 2) I would call the phone and electric company and set up a payment plan so our services can stay on until I get the money to pay them. and 3.) Tell them my money situation and see how they might help me. Again - this is worst case scenario, Fear.
Fear: Those things can be scary. But they all seem to have some kind of resolved out come. Maybe I am over reacting.
Me: Perhaps just a little. I mean, I came all this way & found the money to do it - shouldn't I enjoy what I have manifested? Won't the bill still be there when I get back? Yes. They will. One thing that WOULD make me feel better in this moment is to see what I can do NOW to take action with these bills. Do what I can and then let go. Yes, that feels nice.
Fear: Le sigh. I guess I'll go back to sleep now.
Me: Thanks for the reminder, but I got this.
If you want to try this out for yourself, notice if you experience resistance around the exercise & push through it. Believe me the end result is a lot less scary than writing it out.
During the ROOTED Intensive we will be working through money woes & blocks. This is one of the categories the new exercises will fall under. I hope to see you there - July 18th.