Surrender - it ain't no joke 06/29/2011
On Sunday I had friend return a book of mine that I let her borrow a while back. You might know it, it's called A Return to Love.
I was so thrilled to have this book back in my possession that I went back to reading it right away.
Since I've read all of the book before, I just picked the chapter I most wanted to read - it happened to be Work - personal power. My favorite quote from this section is...
Don't ask God to send you a brilliant career, but rather ask him to show you the brilliance within you.
Beautiful huh? Makes you feel powerful, doesn't it?
That is just how I went to bed feeling on Sunday night. Powerful.
So much so that I found the strength to surrender once more my life, business, marriage, my honeymoon - everything. It felt good letting go the reins and handing them over to someone with much more experience & know-how.
Monday - the car
The big task I had to tackle on Monday was renting a car. I thought this was going to be a breeze, but as The Universe would have it - I got thrown into a whirl wind of things not going my way. Rule after rule shutting me down. Alas, there was nothing I could to rent a car or borrow a car from a friend. I had to find another way.
Needless to say, at this point (around 1:45 pm) I was irritated, frustrated, upset, hopeless & yet, still determined.
I managed to work something out with my roommates (who were flying into San Francisco the Wednesday) to pick us up & take us to Tahoe with them - it wasn't what I had planned. But it worked out with just a shift in plans.
Monday - money
Soon there after, another tidal wave came crashing down on me. We didn't have enough money put away to go on the trip. I thought I had taken the necessary steps. I thought I did what I needed to do to make sure we were covered. But somewhere along the way, the money disappeared.
I was moments away from canceling the trip until The Mister said you should call Stevi & see what she has to say.
Crying, upset, sad, irritated & at a loss, I called Stevi. I explained the situation & said I didn't know what to do. She said if you could wave a magic wand and have however much you need to make the trip work, how much would you need? I put a number out there and she okay - I'll let you borrow it. & just like that, the trip was back on.
I got off the phone with Stevi & went into the living room smiling & shared the story with the Mister. He said yay. I knew it would all work out.
I looked back at my Monday of emotional ups and down (something I rarely experience) and then remembered that the night before I layed in bed, surrendering my life to God.
Monday morning he started working his miracles and I slammed on the breaks not realizing I had asked for all of this.
Surrendering does not mean giving up.
Surrendering means you want something bigger and greater. Something you know is unachievable alone. I don't know what The Universe has planned for this trip - but I do know there is purpose, reason & magic.
I completely trust that this is all part of a bigger plan to make our honeymoon as magical as possible & for that I am grateful.
Okay, Universe- I hear you.
Letting go now,
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