Hello, My name is Megan and my Dad is gay. 11/09/2011
Yesterday I mentioned I was working on my backstory as part of my work with Tara Gentile and by suggestion of Lori-Lyn, remember? Here's the first piece. Be gentle with me.
I was always a Daddy's Girl growing up. My parents got divorced around the time that I was 9 and my sister, Sara and I lived with him (our Father) from then on.
There might of been a year or so in between my parents getting a divorce and us moving to Lancaster to live with our Dad, but I don't remember that time at all.
My sister and I were lucky. Even though our parents got divorced they still got along rather well. It made the transition easier for me.
When I was about 14 or 15 my Dad was working late and we were at home (my Mom visiting us,) watching Lifetime (she is a Lifetime addict) and I believe, coloring. The Lifetime movie we happened to be watching was about a man cheating on his wife with another man. He lived two lives.
I remember the Dad from 7th Heaven in it, he was playing the cheating, gay man.
Anyway, my Mom looks over at me and she says "Megan, what if your Dad was that way?" I said "what way?!" She said, "Megan, what if your Dad was gay?" I remember starring at her with a shocked look on my face and then shaking my head, giggling nervously and saying "no, your lying." And then my Mom said, "Megan, yes."
I think it was about that point that I burst into tears and ran over to her to have a hug. I felt so devastated.
A little while after my tears had calmed and I had settled down a bit my Dad came home.
I remember walking into the kitchen where he was and looking at him. He knew I was angry. I don't remember if I said anything to him at that point or not. I don't remember if he said anything to me either.
I do remember, however, the anger I felt at the situation.
I didn't really care about the fact that my Dad was gay, all though those conversations took a little bit longer to adjust to. I was just so angry that I was lied to. This man that I had adored and cherished daily had been lying to me so extravagantly for more than 5 years.
Now that I'm older I know that my Mom must have gone through a simliar experience of betrayal and pain. I realize now that my parents couldn't have possibly told me any sooner than they did. I wouldn't have understood the capcity of the situation.
The reason that my parents got divorced was not only because my Dad cheated on my Mom, like I had once thought, it was because my Dad cheated on my Mom with another man.
To be continued...
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